just a sub cranial glitch

       its been quite a while since i logged in so i thought of posting one more......this is the first tuesday of november...its 20.13hrs and there's just songs around me....oh yeah its all soothing music.......but the disturbance deep inside me seems to crack the melody of this music.....dont know why but this time,i dont seem to find my music that SOOTHING....my thoughts seem to dominate that feeling of refuge and relaxation i generally get from music.this wave of disturbance really seem to make me feel inconvenient......and that is where i try to figure out the cause for this glitch in my head......i thought i was not happy with the things around me but i guess i was wrong.......the mighty upset to me was myself.....i think i need my time.......a time of solitude and silence......something i believe can answer my confusion.....something that can cure this itch inside me......i wanna figure out whatever turned me into what i AM from what i USED to be......rather the way i loved myself to be.......someone who had his head under his control..................and everytime i look back it makes me feel mierable somewhere inside......it asks for solitude......silence......maybe i should get into it.......after all i deserve to know what turned me this way..............

reflections....

            Its 9:51 am as i look at my mobile and this saturday is the last day of my vacation...one more sunday and my college(or should it be called the Guantanamo Bay?) is gonna open again....it was good until this fight took place in our college that the management made things strict for us.....and the worst part is the fencing around....the so called "solar fencing".....and the principal roaming in the corridors like a sniffer dog searching for suspects...........it should definitely be called a prison.....now we have CUT on sports timings,hanging out near college...or lets make it short....our college life.

           And then i just look back at what i've done in my one month of vacation and here's what i figure out....NOTHING.All these days i was wasting my time.......on this chair....browsing.....eating.....air force....sleeping....and what do i yield?barely nothing............all these days i was feeling so proud of my laziness but maybe my opinion seems to quake a bit.....maybe i should start working....get back my controls.....the way i used to be......rather the way i wanted myself to be......just a bit  better.....