such a long time..........

I don't know if I can term this 'deja vu' cos I'm about the start this blog just the way I did with my previous entry.......and thats cos I cant think of a better start.....anyways I seem to justify my blog name yet again....so here I am after a long time...on a pleasant noon of a 'yet another lazy weekend'....Its 15.31 hrs IST as I look at my mobile....thats almost 10 hrs past sunrise....maybe seven days past this week began...........almost 4 months since I've appointed myself into this idleness. And after a while, I can say, am reminded of myself again that am a graduate now.....having won my 3-year battle.....a graduate....an alumni of my college......This 'alumni' part used to pain a little initially but my laziness has taken me to heights.........heights where I dont see any 'pain' for the 'past'.

I used to believe that being a southpaw ( I love to use this word- its 'another' for lefties)........made me lucky....but present situations force me to doubt my thinking. Am I being silly or confusing or both?? Let me try to explain.......I'm sure that most of you might be remembering the racism 'shit' that took place in and around melbourne recently. Now here goes my analysis....I am damn sure that Melbourne has existed since even before my grand parents were born......and Indians have been inhabitants since then.......however these 'things' have taken part only when I had planned to study there........no sooner had I thrown myself into the core of that processing that these things got into lime light.......and by the time I had fought against everyone around me and convinced them about my career, a was late...............and there goes the result- I FAILED!!!...........Yes.... I failed to see myself in Melbourne in August...crashing my plans.....hehe....i thought of seeing myself in melbourne..uploading pics on orkut...maybe writing my next blog entry fromAus....This was a part of my thoughts a couple of months ago but thank you 'my good luck'........all's screwed up......and the only residue of all those crashed up plans........was 'me'.

So...after having 'F'ed up a few plans............here I am.....an idle head.........trying to lose myself into online gaming and free downloads........and despite all these things.....I feel normal.........the drug's called 'hope'.......a hope that I'll end up seeing myself into something useful......something that makes me feel atleast an inch better than does being an idler. Hoping so......this is me signing out.......I hope to see myself in a different state the next time I write this blog....